Saturday, September 29, 2007
why am i here. im supp to be mugging. but as you know, i never. sighhh.
im like so stressed. ytd i even forgot all my steps. too much stress linn, too much stress.
but everyone got such high expectations of me. arrrghhh.
im expected to get high from my parents. [so they got sth to compare with my sis next time] im expected to get high from school and teachers. [i mean like duhhh]
im expected to get high from kt? [cos she kind of thinks that i ALWAYS score high. which is like TOTALLY not true. hey im HUMAN. sryyy im trying not to sound obnoxious yet angry. and failing miserably]
im expected to get high enough for psb. [or else say byebye]
im expected to get well from myself [ill personally murder myself if i get gpa below 3.2, and that means suicide. ok, i luvv life too much i wont, but torturing myself will be enough.]
im expected to get high so that i can still go for activities. [like you know what]
im expected to get high so that i can still look at myself w/o shame.
im expected to get high so i wont get scolded.
im expected to get high just for that 3.2 or 3.5 in my report.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. im hungry.
my legs look perfect!
this is meant to be 2 splits.
do you see what we see?
im like so stressed. ytd i even forgot all my steps. too much stress linn, too much stress.
but everyone got such high expectations of me. arrrghhh.
im expected to get high from my parents. [so they got sth to compare with my sis next time] im expected to get high from school and teachers. [i mean like duhhh]
im expected to get high from kt? [cos she kind of thinks that i ALWAYS score high. which is like TOTALLY not true. hey im HUMAN. sryyy im trying not to sound obnoxious yet angry. and failing miserably]
im expected to get high enough for psb. [or else say byebye]
im expected to get well from myself [ill personally murder myself if i get gpa below 3.2, and that means suicide. ok, i luvv life too much i wont, but torturing myself will be enough.]
im expected to get high so that i can still go for activities. [like you know what]
im expected to get high so that i can still look at myself w/o shame.
im expected to get high so i wont get scolded.
im expected to get high just for that 3.2 or 3.5 in my report.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. im hungry.
my legs look perfect!
this is meant to be 2 splits.
do you see what we see?
dance with ME . (:
Friday, September 21, 2007
today is so fun!
the assembly show was rather like something wrong. but not as nice, cos the dancers quite weak. as in not as much strength as laoshi's. and the black guys are so nightmarish. sighhh.
AHAHAHA. im so highhh. we played the who am i game. i got like AL PACINO? what? like half the ppl dunno who he is. i also dunno. apparently hes the one who played shylock. kool. and we sang. voices that care and reach for the stars. and throughout the song got so many reach. but i only manage reach 1. well, at least i REACHED! (:
then they were like put your hands up and freeze. ohmigosh i didnt know got surprise spotcheck. sighhh. eenette got one long sock and one short sock. SO FUNNAYE! ahahaha.
i met so many new ppl. but i forgot their names. hope they can rem me. lalalala.
oh no i wasnt listening 100%. what if i missed out sth impt? i think there WAS sth about court shoes and mail...
yayyy im happy today (: cos i ate ee iyn's champagne mooncake.
ohmigosh. YES the downstairs hokkien mee store opened again! and i ate wonderful+oily+fatty+delicious carrot cake. muaaak
dont worry dear kyungtae i still and always will love you loads. no matter what.
the assembly show was rather like something wrong. but not as nice, cos the dancers quite weak. as in not as much strength as laoshi's. and the black guys are so nightmarish. sighhh.
AHAHAHA. im so highhh. we played the who am i game. i got like AL PACINO? what? like half the ppl dunno who he is. i also dunno. apparently hes the one who played shylock. kool. and we sang. voices that care and reach for the stars. and throughout the song got so many reach. but i only manage reach 1. well, at least i REACHED! (:
then they were like put your hands up and freeze. ohmigosh i didnt know got surprise spotcheck. sighhh. eenette got one long sock and one short sock. SO FUNNAYE! ahahaha.
i met so many new ppl. but i forgot their names. hope they can rem me. lalalala.
oh no i wasnt listening 100%. what if i missed out sth impt? i think there WAS sth about court shoes and mail...
yayyy im happy today (: cos i ate ee iyn's champagne mooncake.
ohmigosh. YES the downstairs hokkien mee store opened again! and i ate wonderful+oily+fatty+delicious carrot cake. muaaak
dont worry dear kyungtae i still and always will love you loads. no matter what.
dance with ME . (:
Thursday, September 20, 2007
now no one knows why im emoing. again.
im so disappointed in you. why do you always hang around like you clearly dont want to? im really really sorry im irritating to you. i didnt know? you dont have to come confusing me. im already confused enough. i thought you knew me. but argh. i cant take it anymore. im not a freaking dustbin. if you want, you can always go away. and leave me alone. like its not bad enough already. i just dont know what to do around you. stupid dilemma.
why do you have to come and pierce through my heart. as it is im not doing well in my studies. i know you prob been like first for everything. whatever. im used to being the last. AHHH I HATE MYSELF WHY AM I ALWAYS SO MEAN TO OTHER PEOPLE> im sorry.
i need to find who i am. ive been horrible. i can feel it too. friends. ?
i feel so so bad. i feel like a mean person. a bitchy loser. why.
im failing math and lit. im failing the subjects which i LIKE. im sorry, but i like math. and lit. i need HELP. ):
im so disappointed in you. why do you always hang around like you clearly dont want to? im really really sorry im irritating to you. i didnt know? you dont have to come confusing me. im already confused enough. i thought you knew me. but argh. i cant take it anymore. im not a freaking dustbin. if you want, you can always go away. and leave me alone. like its not bad enough already. i just dont know what to do around you. stupid dilemma.
why do you have to come and pierce through my heart. as it is im not doing well in my studies. i know you prob been like first for everything. whatever. im used to being the last. AHHH I HATE MYSELF WHY AM I ALWAYS SO MEAN TO OTHER PEOPLE> im sorry.
i need to find who i am. ive been horrible. i can feel it too. friends. ?
i feel so so bad. i feel like a mean person. a bitchy loser. why.
im failing math and lit. im failing the subjects which i LIKE. im sorry, but i like math. and lit. i need HELP. ):
dance with ME . (:
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
i failed lit.
maybe i shouldnt take it after all.
no.
maybe i shouldnt take it after all.
no.
dance with ME . (:
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
to my dearest dearest friend.
everyone deserves off days. i know your damn sad and pissed. i know the feeling of like when everything is going wrong and nothing seems right. trust me. it happened too much. place your faith in God. everything will go right soon. you may not see it now, but its going to come like real soon like sooner than you think.
at least you dont have a psycho mom. GOSH she seriously drive me nuts. she goes on and on and on. and drives me to tears. EVERYDAY. and she just continues. i swear if you get me a doctor, you will find that i am tethering on the line of insanity. im so so stressed.
and my stupid bro is trying to snatch the com from me. literally and figurally. after he fails to get the mouse, he goes to my dad and complain. WHAT THE. cant a girl get some peace and privacy in this madhouse>
and my sis doesnt speak to me. which is a VERY good thing. EXCEPT. she does. everytime she sees me, she goes LOSER or BIG FAT PIG or STUPID or some weird phrase she thinks of.
and they ALWAYS compare my marks with my sis. and OBVIOUSLY i get lower. EACH TIME.
and my bro just offed all the lights in my room. knowing perfectly im RIGHT HERE. and he ALWAYS watch off the tv each time im watching.
GOSH CANT I FREAKING GET AN EASIER LIFE.
and it doesnt help listening to just so you know now. tears are streaming like mad. no kidding.
my bro just came and peered into my eyes. resisted urge to shove him off.
i cant wait to get 18 and get away from home.
oh no major digress. supp to comfort you and everything. sighh. but i know whatever i say just makes it worse. so nvm.
you know each time i say i hate you i never mean it. its always in this way like not really mean it one. but i guess you cant tell. cos of the really hurting suanning remarks. maybe you dont mean it too. sighhh.
<3>
everyone deserves off days. i know your damn sad and pissed. i know the feeling of like when everything is going wrong and nothing seems right. trust me. it happened too much. place your faith in God. everything will go right soon. you may not see it now, but its going to come like real soon like sooner than you think.
at least you dont have a psycho mom. GOSH she seriously drive me nuts. she goes on and on and on. and drives me to tears. EVERYDAY. and she just continues. i swear if you get me a doctor, you will find that i am tethering on the line of insanity. im so so stressed.
and my stupid bro is trying to snatch the com from me. literally and figurally. after he fails to get the mouse, he goes to my dad and complain. WHAT THE. cant a girl get some peace and privacy in this madhouse>
and my sis doesnt speak to me. which is a VERY good thing. EXCEPT. she does. everytime she sees me, she goes LOSER or BIG FAT PIG or STUPID or some weird phrase she thinks of.
and they ALWAYS compare my marks with my sis. and OBVIOUSLY i get lower. EACH TIME.
and my bro just offed all the lights in my room. knowing perfectly im RIGHT HERE. and he ALWAYS watch off the tv each time im watching.
GOSH CANT I FREAKING GET AN EASIER LIFE.
and it doesnt help listening to just so you know now. tears are streaming like mad. no kidding.
my bro just came and peered into my eyes. resisted urge to shove him off.
i cant wait to get 18 and get away from home.
oh no major digress. supp to comfort you and everything. sighh. but i know whatever i say just makes it worse. so nvm.
you know each time i say i hate you i never mean it. its always in this way like not really mean it one. but i guess you cant tell. cos of the really hurting suanning remarks. maybe you dont mean it too. sighhh.
<3>
dance with ME . (:
Saturday, September 08, 2007
i shall take a break from the look-down-on-yourself-and-tell-youself-you-suck feeling and tell myself that i rock. FOR 3 DAYS. yay lin you rock.
i hope hope hope we can go esplanade!
my butt is too big. only ppl like joey, yiling, yi an have flat butts. joey's one is non existent. which is why i have a too fat ass. sighh
i hope hope hope we can go esplanade!
my butt is too big. only ppl like joey, yiling, yi an have flat butts. joey's one is non existent. which is why i have a too fat ass. sighh
dance with ME . (:
Thursday, September 06, 2007
i found a reason to blog. a reason that does not include looking down on myself. no this includes looking down on other. NOT ME OBVIOUSLY. im too 'nice' *hinthint*.
http://love-legacy.blogspot.com/
go tagboard older msg. check out /*/ and RUIQI II
OMIGOSH I NEVER KNEW SOMEONE LIKE THAT COULD EXIST. the mere words that pour out of her mouth. im amazed her fingers can actually bear to type all of those out. okayy, maybe i have moments where i sprout words in fits of anger but SHE IS JUST TOO SIANN. i mean seriously. going around suanning?
ok nvm that. she said this:
: and tutu is the ballet thang. anyway, if you were referring to THAT tutu. oh gracious, you'd better grow
*speechless*
i want my own tutu. even i know ruiqi does not mean the ballet tutu. yet the RUIQI II person is like making a fool of herself. yes. i want a PINK BALLET TUTU and its NOT a child thing/ GERRIT?
RUIQI II: i can't help it, but zinc is totally out of the league. which class are you living in?!
[like OMIGOSH]
RUIQI II: but on the contrary i'm adding on to your ego. for i'm aiding you to attract so much more attention. no wonder you mentioned that you enjoyed these. i see, i see.
RUIQI II: i'm not trying to show that i'm like you (i.e unable to find the point of focus). i still want to emphasize what a big WANNABE you are.
[kettle calling pot black. or is it the other way round?]
RUIQI II: p.s. i'm not talking about kopitiams where everyone gets so rowdy. i'm definite that you were you thinking about that.
RUIQI II: and don't mention it for adding spices to your oh-so-horribly-LOW life. no problem. you can buy me coffee someday. or, are you so low class that you don't even visit coffeehouses?
[whats her prob with coffeeshops? we got it for chi oral okayys?]
RUIQI II: well maybe except for mayee. she's so much more matured. she's the sensible one here (i.e. unlike anyone of you here). and i salute to that.
RUIQI II: and i find your friends are just as shallow as you. calling idiots despite not having the knowledge of the word. at least i can speak and think properly , unlike the people here
[and this sentence is downright insulting.]
RUIQI II: and i found this extremely entertaining. i'm not like a mugger. at least not a self-proclaimed mugger like you. genuine muggers are the cool ones. and you're so out.
[WHAT THE.]
RUIQI II: and look at the brands you're asking for. low class.
RUIQI II: i despise you for not even being able to differentiate the focus. i got 276 for it. what about you?
[this is horrifying. DESPISE? like she have the RIGHT to despise anyone PUH LEASE LOHH]
and thats not all. its full of insults and chiim stuff. i spot intoxicated. whyy do everyone use it, its like so off? anyways. shes like so ARGGGHH. impossible. if she goes around telling ppl they suck and shes from rgs. OMIGOSHH. OMIGOSHHH. no wonder ppl think we are snobbish. and obnoxious. and pompous.
but shes such a LOSERRR. and i dont mean it in the good kind natured way i call my good friends. shes a BIG LOSER. with severe self issues. and a gigongous ego. and IRRITATING.
made my day SO interesting. way to go, LOSERR.
http://love-legacy.blogspot.com/
go tagboard older msg. check out /*/ and RUIQI II
OMIGOSH I NEVER KNEW SOMEONE LIKE THAT COULD EXIST. the mere words that pour out of her mouth. im amazed her fingers can actually bear to type all of those out. okayy, maybe i have moments where i sprout words in fits of anger but SHE IS JUST TOO SIANN. i mean seriously. going around suanning?
ok nvm that. she said this:
: and tutu is the ballet thang. anyway, if you were referring to THAT tutu. oh gracious, you'd better grow
*speechless*
i want my own tutu. even i know ruiqi does not mean the ballet tutu. yet the RUIQI II person is like making a fool of herself. yes. i want a PINK BALLET TUTU and its NOT a child thing/ GERRIT?
RUIQI II: i can't help it, but zinc is totally out of the league. which class are you living in?!
[like OMIGOSH]
RUIQI II: but on the contrary i'm adding on to your ego. for i'm aiding you to attract so much more attention. no wonder you mentioned that you enjoyed these. i see, i see.
RUIQI II: i'm not trying to show that i'm like you (i.e unable to find the point of focus). i still want to emphasize what a big WANNABE you are.
[kettle calling pot black. or is it the other way round?]
RUIQI II: p.s. i'm not talking about kopitiams where everyone gets so rowdy. i'm definite that you were you thinking about that.
RUIQI II: and don't mention it for adding spices to your oh-so-horribly-LOW life. no problem. you can buy me coffee someday. or, are you so low class that you don't even visit coffeehouses?
[whats her prob with coffeeshops? we got it for chi oral okayys?]
RUIQI II: well maybe except for mayee. she's so much more matured. she's the sensible one here (i.e. unlike anyone of you here). and i salute to that.
RUIQI II: and i find your friends are just as shallow as you. calling idiots despite not having the knowledge of the word. at least i can speak and think properly , unlike the people here
[and this sentence is downright insulting.]
RUIQI II: and i found this extremely entertaining. i'm not like a mugger. at least not a self-proclaimed mugger like you. genuine muggers are the cool ones. and you're so out.
[WHAT THE.]
RUIQI II: and look at the brands you're asking for. low class.
RUIQI II: i despise you for not even being able to differentiate the focus. i got 276 for it. what about you?
[this is horrifying. DESPISE? like she have the RIGHT to despise anyone PUH LEASE LOHH]
and thats not all. its full of insults and chiim stuff. i spot intoxicated. whyy do everyone use it, its like so off? anyways. shes like so ARGGGHH. impossible. if she goes around telling ppl they suck and shes from rgs. OMIGOSHH. OMIGOSHHH. no wonder ppl think we are snobbish. and obnoxious. and pompous.
but shes such a LOSERRR. and i dont mean it in the good kind natured way i call my good friends. shes a BIG LOSER. with severe self issues. and a gigongous ego. and IRRITATING.
made my day SO interesting. way to go, LOSERR.
dance with ME . (:
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
i think i suck alot. i look at myself in the mirror and see evidence. ewww i never want to see myself again. and i am not flex at all. and i cant even sit down for 5 mins to do hw. procastinater is ME. ive been saying tmr ill do hw since SAT. nows WED. omigoshhh. 2 more days left. or 1, since friday not free. and weekend sure play one. OH NO.
seriously friends, what DO you see in me other than the 98% crap.
seriously friends, what DO you see in me other than the 98% crap.
dance with ME . (:
Monday, September 03, 2007
its been so long.
ytd was concert. and now im having post concert/ vt blues. again. sighhh. if this happens like everytime i go for concert then sighhh.
SO FUNNN!!!!
i love the changing rooms with all the lights! and sneaking to everyone else's rooms. like alice and jiaxuan they all, very funn! i think jiaxuan not-so-secretly like the neon pink dress. nvm, cos i like it too. with my pretty pretty tiara. and she keep tugging it though i never see. haha. and we steal lipgloss. STRAWBERRY lipgloss yummm. alice so cute! mann, shes like so so cute on stage. haha. we wont supp to eat in front of them, so we went to stand behind them and eat.
and then sneaking to yirong they all the room to sneak at their make up? and the kiap kiap thingy (x omigosh. last night i only kiap my right eye, but i cant see the diff? and when i wanted to put mascara i couldnt find my eyelashes. coz of the super dark liner. shruggs. (x but i like like the silver gluey thingy. haha everyone cant open their eyes. hahahahaha. yi an's one got stuck to her eyelid, then she go peel off and walk around with half of it only (x and steal hello pandas. i think it was yvonne's. haha. and then i seriously ate alot lohh. like 3 packet hello pandas, 3 packet cheese/ peanut biscuits, half long tube of pringles, shared big pack jack and jill with joey, 3 pieces of wan wan and 1 worm sweet. THEN got dinner. and bread with tou sa later. and still not full. but thats me. im gonna get FAT soon mann. ):
i hate eyeliner. doesnt make my eye bigger. ok, actually, it kind of does. but everyone eyes very big already then they draw bigger so mine still look small lahh. (: very hard to get off. i think i accidentally stung my eyes like 10 times. ): ok, practice makes perfect. and im damn lousy cann?
and i went on my eyelid mission. so far im the ONLY ONLY ONLY?!?! single eyelid person. i know i look damn funny going around looking into ppl's eyes but haha. and eunice, yijun, chelsea they all is one single on double (((x even better than mine mann!
and yi an's lashes. REBONDED LASHES. its like so so so straight. we put like tons of mascara and then kiap like 10 times and its like STRAIGHT! haha and it finally curled.....[5 min before we go on stage] i accidentally saw her eyelashes. they were STRAIGHT AGAIN! i laugh like so much i didnt have time to stop before going on stage. and on stage i nearly laugh again. was like biting my lip and everything.
haha. and piggy back session. must have carried like everyone mann. got shu yi, yiling?, joey who is damn damn light. and we went knocking on mandi they all room and run away after that. lalala.
and major camwhoring. i very smart. bring cam but forgot to charge. nvm, later buzz them send me pics. (x I LOVE IT!!! camwhoring with practically everyone lohh! haha. and all the dajiejie got all the weird weird poses. (x
teacher changed shirt like 3 times. one to see whether nice or not, one for vip, one for going on stage, and get flowers! (x
and the confetti was irritating but funn. coz like it went into my eyes like 3 times. then all gather on my tutu. so i look like a walking christmas tree(x and after that we were like throwing confetti and going around telling ppl, EHH HOW OLD ARE YOU EHH?
i think got a lot of stuff NEVER AND CANNOT say. but hahahaha it was damnnn funn. oh i thought yirong turn turn turn going to fall down...but she didnt. OBVIOUSLY! she so rocks lahh.
(: YAY I LOVE CONCERT. though now its really sad. coz i WILL NEVER see my alice, yijun chelsea anyu jiaxuan, yirong kaiqian vanessa mingjie yvonne mandi jingwen yanting kelly etc. OH SADNESS. and also sad for other stuff which you think not impt but nvm. (:
AND SAD KT NEVER COME. SO MANY CHINESE DANCE ITEMS WHICH YOU WILL LOVE!!! sighh.
and EENETTE YOU CAME! haha. i thought you got go in a tutu before. never meh? ahh. must quickly arrange day so we can come choreo tgt kk? i know you found it weird, but the modern item was damn good. item 3. you know? a bit like our syf kind, sad sad one. and the spanish one was good! the seniors dance one.
and CHONG who is having fun at NDP chalet but cant come and who cares? HAVE FUNN!
YAY>I LOVE CONCERT. wahaha.
ytd was concert. and now im having post concert/ vt blues. again. sighhh. if this happens like everytime i go for concert then sighhh.
SO FUNNN!!!!
i love the changing rooms with all the lights! and sneaking to everyone else's rooms. like alice and jiaxuan they all, very funn! i think jiaxuan not-so-secretly like the neon pink dress. nvm, cos i like it too. with my pretty pretty tiara. and she keep tugging it though i never see. haha. and we steal lipgloss. STRAWBERRY lipgloss yummm. alice so cute! mann, shes like so so cute on stage. haha. we wont supp to eat in front of them, so we went to stand behind them and eat.
and then sneaking to yirong they all the room to sneak at their make up? and the kiap kiap thingy (x omigosh. last night i only kiap my right eye, but i cant see the diff? and when i wanted to put mascara i couldnt find my eyelashes. coz of the super dark liner. shruggs. (x but i like like the silver gluey thingy. haha everyone cant open their eyes. hahahahaha. yi an's one got stuck to her eyelid, then she go peel off and walk around with half of it only (x and steal hello pandas. i think it was yvonne's. haha. and then i seriously ate alot lohh. like 3 packet hello pandas, 3 packet cheese/ peanut biscuits, half long tube of pringles, shared big pack jack and jill with joey, 3 pieces of wan wan and 1 worm sweet. THEN got dinner. and bread with tou sa later. and still not full. but thats me. im gonna get FAT soon mann. ):
i hate eyeliner. doesnt make my eye bigger. ok, actually, it kind of does. but everyone eyes very big already then they draw bigger so mine still look small lahh. (: very hard to get off. i think i accidentally stung my eyes like 10 times. ): ok, practice makes perfect. and im damn lousy cann?
and i went on my eyelid mission. so far im the ONLY ONLY ONLY?!?! single eyelid person. i know i look damn funny going around looking into ppl's eyes but haha. and eunice, yijun, chelsea they all is one single on double (((x even better than mine mann!
and yi an's lashes. REBONDED LASHES. its like so so so straight. we put like tons of mascara and then kiap like 10 times and its like STRAIGHT! haha and it finally curled.....[5 min before we go on stage] i accidentally saw her eyelashes. they were STRAIGHT AGAIN! i laugh like so much i didnt have time to stop before going on stage. and on stage i nearly laugh again. was like biting my lip and everything.
haha. and piggy back session. must have carried like everyone mann. got shu yi, yiling?, joey who is damn damn light. and we went knocking on mandi they all room and run away after that. lalala.
and major camwhoring. i very smart. bring cam but forgot to charge. nvm, later buzz them send me pics. (x I LOVE IT!!! camwhoring with practically everyone lohh! haha. and all the dajiejie got all the weird weird poses. (x
teacher changed shirt like 3 times. one to see whether nice or not, one for vip, one for going on stage, and get flowers! (x
and the confetti was irritating but funn. coz like it went into my eyes like 3 times. then all gather on my tutu. so i look like a walking christmas tree(x and after that we were like throwing confetti and going around telling ppl, EHH HOW OLD ARE YOU EHH?
i think got a lot of stuff NEVER AND CANNOT say. but hahahaha it was damnnn funn. oh i thought yirong turn turn turn going to fall down...but she didnt. OBVIOUSLY! she so rocks lahh.
(: YAY I LOVE CONCERT. though now its really sad. coz i WILL NEVER see my alice, yijun chelsea anyu jiaxuan, yirong kaiqian vanessa mingjie yvonne mandi jingwen yanting kelly etc. OH SADNESS. and also sad for other stuff which you think not impt but nvm. (:
AND SAD KT NEVER COME. SO MANY CHINESE DANCE ITEMS WHICH YOU WILL LOVE!!! sighh.
and EENETTE YOU CAME! haha. i thought you got go in a tutu before. never meh? ahh. must quickly arrange day so we can come choreo tgt kk? i know you found it weird, but the modern item was damn good. item 3. you know? a bit like our syf kind, sad sad one. and the spanish one was good! the seniors dance one.
and CHONG who is having fun at NDP chalet but cant come and who cares? HAVE FUNN!
YAY>I LOVE CONCERT. wahaha.
dance with ME . (: