I AM BACK FROM TAIWAN!
i have no idea whether t0 be happy or sad.
i kept my fingernails for SO LONG, they hurt while i type.
i have a SECRET DIARYYYY which only chew knows about and its full of SECRETS (: i filled it up every night except the last 2 nights by then which i cant be bothered already. i shall have to store the missing nights in my memory forever and ever and ever and ever.
singapore is suffocatingly hot. or maybe its just my wooziness after not sleeping and then getting on a stupidly bouncy plane. i am eating so much now! all my beehoon and kwaytiao and chicken rice and hk milk tea and fishball noodles, laksa ZOMG. wo men shi SHIN JIA PO REN.
i have just spread out all my stuff in the living room floor and boy, am i not amazed by the amount of space i took up. ALL MY STUFF like literally, including all the packaging. sighhhh. SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
our last day at TAIWAN;
we were given FREE TIME. FOR ONCE! like really really free time without the teachers and stuff! (: we made full use of it! SHOPPING! SHI DA YE SHI! macs sundae! which was rather dumb as hanliu was here. turning at the turny door until security came. our advanture which is a SECRET (:
talking together until 3 am. taking all the caffeine in the world just to stay up. and i did okay! except i feel like hell now. all the secrets went WHOOSH spilling out. i never knew you could be so irritaed with people. especially the SAME people. our GUOTIE PARTY! (: exclusively for sec 3s! 9 boxes of 20 guo ties, i ate the jiu cai! (: soya bean is sickening. sitting 6 people on 1 bed is crazy.
the guys were apparently into confession mode. I HATE BEING INTERROGATED AND I HATE KEEPING SECRETS. i hate being confused. but i wish the couples all the best, please get together NOW.
i thought it was rather odd when terry shiwei and ben went around hugging everyone. it was SO SAD! oh mans. i will totally miss them! and then hong laoshi came and spoilt the fun. ZOMG. annoying shit.
next day, 3.30am. i swear the day is so unplanned. SO WOOZY from lack of sleep. i swear the entire 2 years of not sleeping is taking its toil on me. i need to sleep. but anyways, i weighed myself, and i was 49kg. my bags were pitifully overweight too. like 26kg. but the weighing scale is off i swear! my bag was 24 kg only at the airport. though still overweight. i cant imagine how everyone who helped me carry my luggage could stand it.
on the plane. i was SO WOOZY. all the couples sat together how sweet! i wasnt being a good friend at that time cos i was so seriously having a damn headache that it was all i could do to keep my eyes open. after take-off at least. i was so confused talking to the air stewardess i swear she hated me. had to repeat everything 3 times. in different languages. and the toilet is so confusing too! i didnt eat anything at all. felt so puke-ish. my head was spinning my stomach was churning and i didnt dare to talk. or even open my eyes. so i tried to listen to house bunny. HOUSE BUNNY EH! i wanted to watch it for like how long? and i heard the mahi mahi part! but was far too woozy to appreciate it. it wasnt even that good a movie.
anyways, i started tearing cos my head hurts but i heard NO MORE MA LA and NO MORE SHI YI LOU NO MORE POOL and i was damn sad. ): thanks to ryan who stuffed my gigandous bag up and even tied it, although the original plan was i do it myself. and to joseph who carried it all the way to the baggage place. i saw my family and i couldnt stop tearing.
all the hugging, crying, love, handshakes, punches will be in my heart forever. all the exchanged words mean everything. for now.
I WILL MISS;
- creeping around in the middle of the night, whether to other rooms, to refill bottle at the amazingly loud watercooler QING YONG WEN KAI SHUI. or at 11.59pm, taking the lift down to basement to search for my missing camera. and getting frightened out of out wits.
- chips and bei bei mian every night!
- gossip sessions with chew every night! or sometimes with pearlynn if she doesnt fall asleep first.
- bathing with the hot water running and misting up the glass
- going out in a claustrophobic bus every weekend.
- the cold wind hitting against my face and making it crack.
- the nights out in the rooftop dancing, emoing alone, watching the cheerleaders do their thing. i want guys in our team too! then we can do the coolios twist from shoulder and landing in the arms.
- being stunned at what people say to me and thinking of something smart to say but failing.
- shopping with renci. looking at the same clothes. trying out hoodie after hoodie after hoodie, not looking when we buy the SAME (zomg) thing. trying to help out the 2 of them! plotting things to do! playing pool!
- laughing at claire. her neutral look. her chou lian. her fake smile. stealing her lime juice and her cheese sticks! asking passers-by stupid questions and scaring them off with her hellos. staring at edward cullen and his sometimes perfectly photoshopped face.
- xiaowei! her morning greetings which never fail to cheer me up. her refusal to lend me her coolios cam! her exclusive hoodie! her tv streaks! i love hairspray and final destination3 and stuff, but sci-fi is not my thing. her cute look when playing with the duster machine.
- swatting mosquitoes with my ri ji. on the ceiling. full of blood stains.
- sleeping at unearthly times.
- calling people. getting pranked by whoever is on the line. honestly, dont you think all guys sound alike? and oopsies, since my ears cant pick up too low frequencies.
- sailorboy and his psp! slim, shiny and silvery. BURNOUT DOMINATOR! my own profile is currently: 2 gold medals! (((((: a few percent i think. good enough! i suck at it but i just cant stop playing! hit the YA-LOW ball! 5kg of taiwan xiang chang. SHINY FINGERNAILS
- wearing my pink fox hoodie which i will never get to wear again.
- stealing dbsk and shinee steps for karaoke. prac-ing.
- being scared by the auditorium. being pissed.
- trying to help the 2 of them get together, but getting bad response. i think i should seriously stop cos it is not working. and it will make both of them hate me. no more notes/changing seats/locking them out of my room. they should get togther! i approve! so sweet and awkward!
- playing pool! i have only played like 4 times so far and i totally suck at it and i need someone to tell me what to do. someone like jordan or ryan my advisor! no matter how much i hate the slightlies or the finger hitting shit.
- oh my advisor! winning me in EVERYTHING we do. like seriously everything! splashing, walking, cycling, heartbeat, fatburn, running, moonwalk, strength, chest muscle, rowing, carrying heavy bags, EGO aura, pool. even being my advisor, he wins. GREAT. but he loses to sailorboy. because i distracted him apparently. OOPS.
- eating in the basment. ma la? no thanks
- 16 degrees celsius.
- my top bunk. jumping down every morning.
- ignoring pearlynn every 6.45am. rolling all the way in so she cant reach me.
- being so anxious
- bei-ing shis.
- drinking water in the morning, making excuses not to drink them.
- squat toilets. or maybe not. going to the guys' one cos there was a long queue at the girls'.
- taiti/cheat/bridge/speed
- OCEAN PARK! viking/pirate ride/spin spin ones. laughing at the guys who without fail touches their hair after the ride. shouting raffles down the slides.
- class grow and his bishan gay look! 8) like this! making him NOT drop his mike. not letting him copy the steps. poise-ing for his coolios cam. his bimbo and hot poses. taiti.
- shiwei the rugby player and the 300m tall guy. zomg i cant stand his lame jokes. the how big is your memory card one. oh mans. hand punch! guys forever! dont ever try to interrogate me in the lift again! if we go down again, i will laugh at you!
- mabel! at first you used to scare me! but you are just like a big sister! i swear! you are so strong! strength of 10 people! so animated talking about things! the classic look on your face whenever pearlynn tries to kiss you!
- angieeeeeeeeee! you are ALWAYS there i swear, whenever i need you! dont be sad when you dont buy stuff. i get SO SAD when i dont spend, that i will completely ignore everyone. seriously. take care of KI KI THE KILLERWHALE KAYYYYY (:
- naichas! chocolate ones/ caramel ones especially cos they taste like melted pearls!
- food! taiwan xiang chang, ji pai, lei cha, muachi, niu jiao mian bao, dao xiao mian not really.
- liu qi people, esp the nice gor gor who bought us naicha! (:
- mai laoshi and lin laoshi who we will never see again.
- CAI LAHOSHI AND LIN LAOSHI who treats us to naicha and lu wei and forces us to go for break every hour and in the end gives us breaks every half an hour cos we fall asleep in class, gives us time to prac karaoke and tells us answers for our tests! wo man zai er gui di hui dao le xin jia po dan wo hui yong yuan xiang nian ni men de!
- being not a part of reality
- going for hot spring, but not daring to go in cos one, renci is not there with me, two, i am wearing my bright swim suit and three, I CANT SEE A THING.
- taking the lift 10 times up and down cos the door refuses to open at the 5th floor.
- being mean and ignoring mean.
- talking behind backs.
- asking marcus every single day who the GIRL is. and he refuses to tell me.
- trying out the eye reading thing on sailor boy cos he cooperates and has big eyes!
- terry's playing jay chou pu gong ying!
- EVERYTHING!
- shida, shiyi lou, the auditorium, washing machines, basement, room 504
- eating, jerry, celina
- bedcheck man! whatever happened to the luo zhi xiang and dbsk masks
- slapping tons of moisturizer and lipbalm on
- ROOMMATES! waking up this morning to quietness and no LINNN LINNNN WALK UP ITS SEVEN ALREADY when it is SO NOT!
- pearlynn and her endless swoonings
- chloe and her noises when she sleeps!
- CHEWWWWW and all we talk about at night! MY LIPS ARE SEALED!
- packing together, squishing everything together!
- talking to some people. ):
- going for lessons! except for kungfu.
- exams! or moaning for it anyways
- dj max on roxanne's psp!
- my exclassmate guy, key guy, cousin guy, kibum guy, guy who looks like exclassmate guy, gay guy. i miss those names.
- playing the crazy guitar game as a class! one key each! mine was the down key.
- crying together to sad songs! graduation, you'll be in my heart
- mingdao school! everyone was so nice! i miss maggie! (: tou hao dbsk fans!
- chew reading my secret diary and commenting on the contents of it! like who i always talk about!
- choreography. or not. since i always complain.
- raffles cheers with guys! oh man i never knew the cheers could sound like that.
- milk green tea!
- class grow's weird noises ESP MUNCH MUNCH. into the mic
- joseph's weird name? his evil smile.
- SEE PEARLYNN!
- seeing a rat in the basment eeewwwwwwcccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkssssssssssssssss.
i have loads more to say, loads more to post about! loads more, waiting to spill out of my diary/my head. BUT IM TIRED, MY HEAD IS SPINNING and i cnat stand it anymore!
wanted to do shout-outs to special someones but i guess not now. SOME OTHER DAY KAYYYY!